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« on: August 05, 2012, 12:53:34 AM »
The change of a troubled kid


Time is what's needed
Time is what it is all about
Every second will pass
Crawling closer near the ending

Time is everything
Everything changes
But that which you care about
It will not stay unchanged

I've seen it
We all have
We can't do anything
The fact that nobody will stay the same

I thought I was the only one
A spectator between the characters
It was wrong
After all this time
Too I have been changed

Matters it what the others think?
Or is it okay to be be alone
Nobody should know the answer
Or even agree to the last

That is the reason why I'm afraid
Afraid of what will come
Scared of myself
Frightened for everything

I have changed.
If only I knew in what.


The view of a spectator


The innocence you once had that day

What is it you wish to deny
The change of the days you remember
It's a fact they didn't stay
They departed
Made space for the new reality

Why must you deny the truth
The truth of what you've learned
Time will never go backwards
But you accepted this fact
Didn't you already

Now I'm here
Looking back
Back at the kid that thought he knew
All he did was deny the truth

It was the wall of knowing where you hid
Couldn't accept what was before you
It was the angst for the changed ego
You couldn't be wishing for time to move backwards

It was you that wanted to see the future
A future brighter than the days you had
This future I see every day
Without a doubt
You wished for it

I'm still you, even though changed by challange
It's the reason I knew
You only existed to be saved by the rest


Dynamic


Weeks, months
Whilst moving I have traveled through them
Not standing still
The realization which grinded for years
Disappeared as if I was blind

First an observant
To dismay, now a participant
A situation I despised
What has changed
To the one that thought he had a grip

Waves of melancholy went through me
The moment I lost nostalgia
Unknown was what I expected
But the disappointment too grave

Forgive me, me of today
As I longed for something lost
With reason disposed

Forgive me tomorrow
As for today I desire dreams


« Last Edit: November 30, 2013, 05:45:27 PM by rsslayersr »

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Re: Change
« Reply #1 on: August 07, 2012, 02:41:15 AM »
I love this  ;D

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« Reply #2 on: August 07, 2012, 02:47:44 AM »
Thanks :)


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« Reply #3 on: August 07, 2012, 03:41:51 AM »
your welcome darling  8)

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« Reply #4 on: August 23, 2012, 02:53:58 AM »
Beautiful.

Don't act like you give a f*ck about me. I just want to kill myself anyway.

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« Reply #5 on: February 06, 2013, 11:09:11 PM »
I completely burried this from the surface. It's luck that I was reminded I wrote this.
Let me post a reaction to this.


You might not know this, but Mytthal has a soft spot for cake. He likes to lurk around West and steal Apple Pie from the Cooking Guild.
An Apple a day keeps the Guildmaster away!