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Sandsea / A word of thanks to everyone here
« Last post by Zodiac Killer 99 on May 26, 2017, 01:11:59 AM »
So I hadn't planned to write anything in advance, but I stumbled back across the forum after searching a question on google about FF12, and I was hit by a wave of nostalgia seeing some of the old names. I don't really know how long this post will be - I have a habit of writing long posts - but I wanted to express my gratitude to everyone who's ever participated on this site.

I didn't have many friends as a child. I was a lot smarter than my classmates in my primary school, and that led to... not so much bullying as such, but isolation. It didn't really phase me at the time, because I didn't know any different, but looking back it wasn't a good time. I used games to distract myself from that and trouble at home (my parents were separated due to my dad's alcoholism (I saw him occasionally, but very rarely was he sober) and my mum (who I lived with) had more than her fair share of mental health issues - though she always tried her best).

I eventually stumbled across Final Fantasy 7 about... 12 years ago as a guess, and it was the first time I'd found a game with such a deep storyline and intricate character detail. I was only ~10 or 11, but I easily became hooked. I'm not sure why, but I easily related with the character of Cloud, to the extent that I think the way he developed in the game actually somewhat impacted my development - but I may be looking into things too much. Anyway, I played through most of the game with my brother (who is 5 years older), but as we approached the end of disc 2, he became busier with school work and lost interest. However, he remembered my love for the game and how it made me better, and when my mum was going through a particularly bad patch and we had to stay with my grandparents in the summer of 2006, he bought me final fantasy 12 - once again, I felt the same passion as I had for final fantasy 7, and it distracted me completely, not only from the isolation at school but the problems I had at home.

I was only able to play for a few weeks however, before I had to start at secondary school. I'd got into a highly-ranked school, and I was no longer one of the smartest, which suited me just fine. However, from years of not really having any friends in primary school, I didn't know how to talk to people, so I remained fairly isolated. I had a few people I would speak to and was on friendly terms with, but I was too socially awkward to have any real friendships. As soon as I got home from school, I'd continue with final fantasy 12.

Fast forward to April 2007 - school work up till this point had been fairly intense, and I hadn't had as much time for gaming as I once had. I believe I had stopped at Mt. Bur Omisace, but I may be wrong. I'm a little hazy on the timings of things, because my brother and grandparents always tried to 'protect' me from the truth, but at some point my mum had also started drinking, and this became problematic. Anyway, in April, my mum collected me from school one day and told me my dad had died from an alcohol-induced heart attack. At this point, I hadn't seen him in months (he'd previously visited every week, then every two weeks, and so on). I was, naturally, upset, but I hate to admit it - due to the isolation I had felt from such a young age, I don't feel it overly affected me, at least not in terms of an emotional response. I cried for about half an hour, visited my grandparents, and then went home, straight back to final fantasy 12.

I spent a lot of time on it over the following weeks and months. I developed irritable bowel syndrome around this time, which my mum thinks was at least partially down to the stress of my dad's death not having anywhere to go as I didn't have much of an emotional reaction. I went through numerous hospital tests and overnight stays, but as I was on a children's ward (which had a small tv by each bed), I was always able to bring the game with me. I think having FF12 with me throughout my hospital stays only made me grow more attached to it, as it became a sort of crutch for dealing with the stress.

Anyway, this is where stuff starts coming back to the forum - sorry it's taken so long! After a while, I want to say late 2007 to early 2008, I started posting on gamefaqs, wanting to get a more intricate understanding of the game and improve. I was blown away by the knowledge of a few of the people, not least FF12grandmaster. I contacted him via PM after a while, and we talked for a long time. At some point, he mentioned to me that a few of the members were setting up a new forum dedicated to FF12 - Eruyt Village - and asked if I'd like to join. I know he no longer visits this forum, but for both talking to me and giving me that initial invite, I am so grateful to him - Angel, if you happen to log on and see this post and still live near him, I'd love it if you could give him my thanks.

Anyway, I joined Eruyt Village (some of you may remember it) and all was well for a while. I honestly can't remember how long it was up, but at some point near the end of its time, I was banned by Fran (the person who set it up). Having used that forum very much as one of my few opportunities to socialise, this was a hard hit. I contacted FF12GM on gamefaqs, and asked if he could help. He told me not to worry, and that stuff wasn't going great with the website. A couple of days later, Eruyt Village was gone. A couple of days after that (may even have been only one day), Bram opened up FFTogether. I signed up as soon as I heard.

I'm not sure if anyone here remembers the early days particularly well, but for a very long time, I had the most time clocked online and one of the highest post counts - I absolutely loved this site. It became not only a great resource for one of my favourite games of all time, and a way to learn more about it, but my main mode of socialising with people with similar interests. I have no doubt that the conversations I had here, especially in the earlier days, played a very large part in improving my social skills and leading to the life I have today. As cheesy as it sounds, I'll never forget the long conversations we had in the Sandsea, the role plays, the games of Ivalice Spy - any of it.

After a little while, I transferred the social skills I had learned here into my school life. I was by no means fantastic at first, and I made more than a few horrendously embarrassing mistakes, but as time passed, I became more at ease with the people I hung around with. I'm still very introverted to this day, and get anxious when I have to talk to people I don't know particularly well, but I'm happy at my current stage, and have a really solid group of friends, a girlfriend of over 2 years, and things are working out well for me. I don't think I'd have any of it without you guys. It was this forum that first made me open up about certain things, and realise that I could talk about how I was feeling without fear of being mocked or attacked. Through that, I began to let people in my life closer to me, instead of keeping them at a distance, and went on to develop friendships that I still have to this day. I'm so grateful to all of you, with special thanks to FF12grandmaster for talking to me initially on gamefaqs and inviting me here, Bram for starting up this site in the first place (and so hastily after Eruyt Village was gone!), and also to Angel, who I've had a number of very helpful private messages with throughout the years, as well as to anyone else on here I've had particular friendships with.

My one regret is that after I started making friends at school and going out more, along with having more and more schoolwork (and then uni work after that), I lost time for this site. I know logically it's something that everyone will go through as they get older and busier, but I can't help but feel at least a little bad for it. If there's anything we can do to reinvigorate some activity, what with the release of FF12: The Zodiac Age, I'd be more than willing to play my part.

But once again, thank you to everyone here for your contributions over the past 9 years or so, and I wish you all all the best with your lives.
Final Fantasy XII / Re: Final Fantasy XII: The Zodiac Age
« Last post by Zodiac Killer 99 on May 26, 2017, 12:30:23 AM »
I'm really excited for this, I always wanted to play IZJS but could never find a way to obtain it and modify my console correctly. It's going to be so much fun finally having the opportunity to play with the job system.

I am a little disappointed with the trophy list (see here: ) as I would have liked there to be a few trophies to do with clan rank (including achieving Order of Ambrosia rank), but there's still some good ones on there.

I can't wait to see how the dual job systems play out - does anyone have any preliminary thoughts on job setup amongst the characters?

Also, I do wonder if there'll be a reliable way to manipulate the PS4 RNG for some of the rarer treasures - I don't particularly fancy 56 hours for a seitengrate!
Sandsea / Re: The sandsea part
« Last post by Zodiac Killer 99 on May 26, 2017, 12:25:04 AM »
Once again, I've been gone longer than I intended. How has everyone been?
Final Fantasy XIV / Re: FFXIV General discussion topic
« Last post by Da_Cloud on May 23, 2017, 03:44:00 PM »
They also did a live letter in which they explained the new battle system a bit more. Haven't seen it yet, but the salt on the internet is real :P

It seems every class now has its own personal "limit break" system with indeed the summoner having access to the Bahamut "egi". Bard and Machinist will be able to "move" again while black mage is still bound to there leylines (you'll get an ability to teleport back to your lines though). All figured out from salty people so can't say its 100% true or not.

Can't tell without having played it, but it sounds like the rework is larger than we had anticipated so far.
Final Fantasy XIV / Re: FFXIV General discussion topic
« Last post by RoachWizard on May 23, 2017, 03:32:46 PM »
The new job actions have been published!

Bahamut summon HYPE is real!!
Final Fantasy XIV / Re: FFXIV General discussion topic
« Last post by Chaos on May 18, 2017, 02:31:32 PM »
I believe they send out those emails once a week, so I'll know in a week. I won't get my hopes up, but it's still worth a shot. ;D

And I got the email this morning! ^_^
Final Fantasy XIV / Re: FFXIV General discussion topic
« Last post by Da_Cloud on May 18, 2017, 08:02:52 AM »
Whether or not the song sticks only time will tell, took me some time into the story of heavensward to really appreciate the theme song as well :D

Also I've send out an invite through the game, so only time will tell if you where eligible for the campaine ;)
Final Fantasy XIV / Re: FFXIV General discussion topic
« Last post by Chaos on May 16, 2017, 03:06:16 PM »
Was about to post this. ;D Nice song, but I don't find it very memorable. Maybe my opinion will change if we get another Nidhogg-style battle.

Btw. can you check if I'm eligible for that Returner's free login? It's been three months since my last subscription ended, but I am not sure if last month's free login made me ineligible for the Returner's stuff.
Final Fantasy XIV / Re: FFXIV General discussion topic
« Last post by Da_Cloud on May 16, 2017, 01:26:07 PM »
SE released the main theme for Stormblood.
Sandsea / Re: The sandsea part
« Last post by SwordStealer on May 11, 2017, 08:32:30 PM »
Nick and Angel are back? Gasp.
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